Why Have I Been Absent?08:40
So todays post will be different from the conventional beauty posts that I usually post. Instead I've decided to explain why I took such a big break from blogging.
In a previous post I spoke about being quite depressed at my university. I wasn't enjoying the course, I didn't get along with the people on my course, I didn't like where I was living(accommodation), I didn't like the town and so many other reasons. I was torn in december whether to continue on my course and to just stick it out for three years or to drop out, reapply to a different university, to a different course and start over.
This was such a hard decision for me and there were pros and cons to both sides. I didn't want to drop out of university and waste all that time and money I already put in but I also didn't want to stay at a university I hated. On the other hand, dropping out and reapplying was such a scary thought because I could have been left in the same position as before, just hating the course and the university. After the Christmas holidays, I headed back to start another semester at university and thats when I knew I couldn't stay there for any longer. The Christmas break made me realise I was so much happier at home and how depressed university was making me. So what did I do?
I did my research over the Christmas holidays, found a course I wanted to do and universities I wanted to apply for. So I took the plunge, dropped out and reapplied for a different course at a different university. I did get accepted to all of them. From January to September I moved back home and applied for jobs. I knew I wasn't going to get far with the job hunting process as I had very little experience so I was jobless for those months apart from summer when I worked as a waitress. I had so much free time and it was killing me, I did become very depressed again because I felt like I was house bound. My routine was the same every single day and I literally had nothing to do. As much as I would have liked to blog at that time, I don't think I was mentally ready for it because my depression was at an all time low. I was facing personal issues which had a big factor to play in that as well but due to all this, I stayed in bed for 99% of the day and lost a lot of weight.
However, university came around and I went in with the mindset to socialise as much as I physically could. This was because I knew the more I put myself out there, the better my experience would have been and this worked. I met some amazing people and I enjoy university a million times better than my first experience. Dropping out and reapplying was the best decision I've ever made. I then got caught up with university life which entailed socialising, studying and partying so my blog went to the back of my mind again.
But now, I really want to get back into it and so I've started blogging again! To really throw myself into blogging again, i've decided I want to blog everyday for a while, so a new blog post will be up everyday at 5pm GMT!
I hope this explained why I stopped blogging and thank you for reading!